Wednesday, January 12, 2011

So this is the first blog that I've created where I have opened up about my mental illness. The cat's out of the bag, so to speak.

I would like to give you a little "peak" into one of my days, which would be today.

I woke up this morning, I believe, to my alarm clock. All night, my back was in extreme pain and I felt it while I slept when I turned in bed. First thing I did upon waking up was go to the kitchen, eat 3 saltine crackers and take 2 Tylenol for my pain.

I got dressed and tried to call my husband and ended up leaving him a message. I was very dissapointed I couldn't reach him.

Then it was time to prepare for my son to go to school. I cooked a special breakfast this morning, scrambled eggs and for my son sugar & cinammon toast and for me honey toast. Thank God for our fresh 99-cent tub butter I bought Sunday coming home from church at one of my favorite stores, Fresh N Easy.

Both my son and I take daily inhalers for our asthma.

Sometimes it gets tiring but they sure help and without them, and yes I've took myself off of them before, and it was VERY scary when I developed sudden asthma attacks, so we stay on ours faithfully. I also take my psychiatric medicine in the morning; it helps me keep stable throughout the day. I also thank God for my psychiatric medicine. My viewpoint on medicine is man used the brain that God created him with to develop the medicine used to treat ill and fallen humanity. Hey, if it weren't for doctors, I would be dead right now. I had a life-saving surgery when I was a little girl, an emergency appendectomy. That is the primary reason that I desire to be a nurse. And LORD willing, one day I will be one!! It takes time and patience sometimes to achieve ones goal but with perseverance, it can happen!

(live interruption--a phone call from my hubby :) )

After Jacob went to class, I drove to my gym and worked out. I drank my protein shake when I got home, then vacuumed the entire apartment, ate lunch, then took a shower. I was struggling to take my shower. I was feeling weak and tired. Maybe it was from the Flu shot I got yesterday, I don't know.

But me & my coffee with Sweet & Low & non-dairy creamer got me through the rest of the day, helped me as a volunteered at my son's school.

One day later:

I ended up not finishing this post so I will pick up now and tell you about my day today :)
I woke up again this morning with severe back pain and took some Tylenol. I knew I was going to be coming home after I dropped off my son from school and not go to the gym. With me being in pain, I need to reserve my energy for things that have to be done around the house. So after dropping my son off at school, I came home and first thing was to do 1 load of dishes. After that, I called and talked to my sister, Becky. We had a good conversation. Becky is kept busy. Becky is going through a divorce right now and she is seperated from her husband and she works full time and takes care of her 2 children mostly on her own. I love my sister Becky and am the closest to her of the 3 sisters I have. I got off the phone with Becky and called my husband.
I cooked some Pinto Beans today with onion, garlic, brown rice and cubed ham. If anyone wants to know how I cook it, leave a reply and I'll post. I felt very accomplished after my beans and rice were cooked!
The medicine I take for my mental illness makes me feel weak and tired sometimes and I struggle with that. Sometimes I think that I don't want to take it anymore, but know it is best. All the times I have gone off my medicine, I always ended up having problems, so right now in my life I am trying to come to a resolution and accept the negative side effects my medicine gives me and learn to live with it. At least I'm stable.
That will be all for now.
"He that keepeth his mouth keepeth his life: but he that openeth wide his lips shall have destruction. The soul of the sluggard desireth, and hath nothing: but the soul of the diligent shall be made fat." Proverbs 13:3&4

Saturday, January 8, 2011

A Woman's Hair

I've wanted to do this blog topic for a long time. Blogging to me is like journaling/a book/a way to stay in touch and I thoroughly enjoy it. So, I have my coffee and I am ready to do this. :)
I have wanted to do a blog on hair, particulary women's hair for a long time. I was raised Apostolic Pentecostal and I was taught that a girl or woman was not supposed to cut her hair according to the Bible.
Let's read the scripture:
I Corinthians 11:13-15
"Judge in yourselves: is it comely that a woman pray unto God uncovered? Doth not even nature itself teach you, that, if a man have long hair, it is a shame unto him? But if a woman have long hair, it is a glory to her: for her hair is given her for a covering."
If you look up the Greek word "long" in these scriptures, you will find the definition "uncut." Long, according to the scriptures, is uncut. If you read the verses prior to these you will understand Paul is talking about authority: I Corinthians 11:3 "But I would have you know, that the head of every man is Christ: and the head of the woman is the man: and the head of Christ is God."
Verse 10 says "For this cause ought the woman to have power on her head because of the angels."
I believe when a woman obeys the Holy Scripture and leaves her hair uncut and let to grow, that she has power in the spiritual realm.
I'll be honest, I have disobeyed the scripture in my lifetime, but I have repented, and I now am growing my hair without cutting it.
Praise God for women of God who obey all the scripture.
Study history; all women used to grow their hair and not cut it. It was a shame if a woman did cut it. We need to go back to the book, the Bible.
"Thus saith theLORD, Stand ye in the ways, and see, and ask for the old paths, where is the good way, and walk therein, and ye shall find rest for your souls." Jeremiah 6:16a
Praise God for Godly women of God who will do what is right and live holy!

Thursday, January 6, 2011

needles

So today I went and had my blood drawn at my Dr.'s office. It was the longest blood draw I have ever had in my life. The man taking my blood couldn't find my vein and he kept prying the needle in and out, left and right, ugh, not the greatest feeling having a needle stuck in your arm for 15 minutes. I was so glad it was over when he finished.
I visited a local food pantry today because we are very low on food. I only had $10.10 to buy food with this week. I spent more on medicine than I did food. I spent $27.90 on medicine; $10.10 on food. So we needed a little help this week. Last week I came across a sheet up on my fridge of some nearby places that assist with food. I'll be making Kraft Maccaroni & Cheese tonight for dinner--my son will LOVE it!

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

A Recap On My Husband's Last Time Home

I want to share a little from my husband's last time home:

My husband got in on Saturday night and I fed him left over turkey wings and American Blend salad and garlic toast. I learned about garlic toast from my dear sister Becky. She'd always make it when I lived with her before I got married and I adopted the idea with my family. My husband got in on Saturday night and he was tired. Sunday we went to church together. We had a baptism after church. A ten-year-old girl wanted to be baptized! Praise God!

We were able to talk with the pastor after service about some personal issues and I felt a lot better after doing that. Here is a picture of us after getting home all dressed up for church:


Sunday night my son had to go to bed early because he was starting school back up after being on Christmas Break for two weeks. It was hard for him to fall asleep that night. My husband and I stayed up playing Scrabble. Fun! I won him. We played another game Monday and here is a picture of that completed board game: I took the picture because I had filled in a w, making the word owe and own and making a complete square with the tiles, which I had never seen before done in Scrabble.



My husband left early early this morning around 3:30am; he gave me a hug and a kiss while I was still laying in bed and we said our goodbyes. I of course sent him with a bag of food. This time, I sent him a bag of fresh oranges and red apples, 1 turkey sandwhich on whole wheat bread, a 1/2 jar of pickles, his hot pickle cut into slices in a tupperware, some bread, a piece of pecan pie, some roasted potatoes, carrots & sweet potatoes, 1 banana and a can of Chicken Noodle Soup.

I had a Dr.'s appointment today and my blood pressure was NORMAL!!!! It was 120/80!!!!! Yeah!!!! I am so happy. Last time it was 140/something and the doctor had wanted to put me on high blood pressure medicine. I told her I didn't feel comfortable in that and that I would try to lower my blood pressure a natural way. I exercised and watched my salt intake. I need to lose weight on a whole, anyway. I want to lose 130 pounds.

later