Wednesday, January 12, 2011

So this is the first blog that I've created where I have opened up about my mental illness. The cat's out of the bag, so to speak.

I would like to give you a little "peak" into one of my days, which would be today.

I woke up this morning, I believe, to my alarm clock. All night, my back was in extreme pain and I felt it while I slept when I turned in bed. First thing I did upon waking up was go to the kitchen, eat 3 saltine crackers and take 2 Tylenol for my pain.

I got dressed and tried to call my husband and ended up leaving him a message. I was very dissapointed I couldn't reach him.

Then it was time to prepare for my son to go to school. I cooked a special breakfast this morning, scrambled eggs and for my son sugar & cinammon toast and for me honey toast. Thank God for our fresh 99-cent tub butter I bought Sunday coming home from church at one of my favorite stores, Fresh N Easy.

Both my son and I take daily inhalers for our asthma.

Sometimes it gets tiring but they sure help and without them, and yes I've took myself off of them before, and it was VERY scary when I developed sudden asthma attacks, so we stay on ours faithfully. I also take my psychiatric medicine in the morning; it helps me keep stable throughout the day. I also thank God for my psychiatric medicine. My viewpoint on medicine is man used the brain that God created him with to develop the medicine used to treat ill and fallen humanity. Hey, if it weren't for doctors, I would be dead right now. I had a life-saving surgery when I was a little girl, an emergency appendectomy. That is the primary reason that I desire to be a nurse. And LORD willing, one day I will be one!! It takes time and patience sometimes to achieve ones goal but with perseverance, it can happen!

(live interruption--a phone call from my hubby :) )

After Jacob went to class, I drove to my gym and worked out. I drank my protein shake when I got home, then vacuumed the entire apartment, ate lunch, then took a shower. I was struggling to take my shower. I was feeling weak and tired. Maybe it was from the Flu shot I got yesterday, I don't know.

But me & my coffee with Sweet & Low & non-dairy creamer got me through the rest of the day, helped me as a volunteered at my son's school.

One day later:

I ended up not finishing this post so I will pick up now and tell you about my day today :)
I woke up again this morning with severe back pain and took some Tylenol. I knew I was going to be coming home after I dropped off my son from school and not go to the gym. With me being in pain, I need to reserve my energy for things that have to be done around the house. So after dropping my son off at school, I came home and first thing was to do 1 load of dishes. After that, I called and talked to my sister, Becky. We had a good conversation. Becky is kept busy. Becky is going through a divorce right now and she is seperated from her husband and she works full time and takes care of her 2 children mostly on her own. I love my sister Becky and am the closest to her of the 3 sisters I have. I got off the phone with Becky and called my husband.
I cooked some Pinto Beans today with onion, garlic, brown rice and cubed ham. If anyone wants to know how I cook it, leave a reply and I'll post. I felt very accomplished after my beans and rice were cooked!
The medicine I take for my mental illness makes me feel weak and tired sometimes and I struggle with that. Sometimes I think that I don't want to take it anymore, but know it is best. All the times I have gone off my medicine, I always ended up having problems, so right now in my life I am trying to come to a resolution and accept the negative side effects my medicine gives me and learn to live with it. At least I'm stable.
That will be all for now.
"He that keepeth his mouth keepeth his life: but he that openeth wide his lips shall have destruction. The soul of the sluggard desireth, and hath nothing: but the soul of the diligent shall be made fat." Proverbs 13:3&4

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